On the forth day of the new year, i went to a place where my dreams once came true. And in the ensuing days i walked on the sands where my fondest memories were made, and swam in the waves that washed away all my worries.

It was probably on the last night, watching that sunset alone, standing on the shore as the waves lapped gently against my feet, did i finally realize that my wish will never come true. For between us laid a distance which i cannot cross, a line that was in fact a wall, a wall that was made taller each time i scaled its height.

Perhaps this is the price i must pay, perhaps there may never come a day when another will tear down that wall and enter the lands where i reside. Perhaps i knew it all along, but refused to acknowledge the futility of my acts of defiance. With that realization, that acceptance, that resignation, i took a step, not towards the sea that holds my dreams, but to the darkness that protects me, the one who was always there for me.

To you who may never know.

©opyrighted, i wished =p
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